You asked me what will happen as I slip into this other world of light, of peace, of extreme tenderness of life after death. Here is what I believe: I have lived all my life in faith and in trust, so I will continue to live in this faith. I trust in life and in people; I trust in my own heart and spirit; I trust in love, in God, in the struggle to be more loving, more truthful. I trust in creation, the birds, the flowers and the seasons….
So what do I believe happens as we slip into this other world of the light of glory? Yes, it will be a wonderful moment of peace, of joy and ecstasy of love, a fulfilment of love. We have arrived at last. It will be more wonderful than anything we could have imagined.
Then there will be a moment of pain. We shall see so clearly how and when during our time on Earth we have hurt and wounded life, our own life and the lives of others. It will be a moment of pain, of deep sorrow.
But then, very quickly (on the other side, time is not the same - no minutes, hours, days, years and so on - all is one and in one; how to explain this new time, I don't know), yes, very quickly, there will be a feeling of being loved as we are with all our brokenness and dirt and mess.
Then we shall weep for joy - no tears, no eyes, but we shall weep for joy for we are loved as we are, with all that we have done to wound life in our past on Earth - and we shall see too all that we have done in love to foster life.
Then we shall enter the place of desire, an immense desire not just to see God, but to be enfolded in God, to drink God, to be loved by God. Desire is a beautiful and wonderful reality. It is the opposite of depression. In depression, there is no desire.
The place of desire is beautiful, but painful too, because we do not have that which we desire so ardently. A desire unfulfilled is an intense waiting - yes, to wait with such immense desire is very painful and can be anguished. This desire, however, purifies and cleanses us, preparing us for the meeting with the Infinite.
And then one day (though there are no days, no years in that new world), the veil is torn, our deepest desire is fulfilled and we are One. Suddenly we discover who we are in God: Life flowing in us and through us, giving and receiving life like a beautiful kiss. All is in us and I am in all. Everything becomes song, laughter, a wedding feast with God and all - my God and I.
It is so wonderful, unspeakably, unbelievably wonderful, to dance and laugh and drink the fullness of life, of love, of beauty with all those we have loved and are now influent. Everything is now accomplished.
Today, we are on Earth, in a land of shadows and sometimes of darkness, but one thing we know: Our hearts, so often wounded, are beautiful. They are made for love. There are times when we feel guilty, angry or depressed, and we blame others. But maybe at some moment a little light comes into our hearts and we begin to hope, to believe.
Let us wait then for this new world we have glimpsed. Let us prepare for it each day through loving others, walking in faith and becoming men and women of peace. Heaven is heaven - a feast of joy, prolonged as we continue to help and walk with those who are still struggling on their journey.
Peace,
Jean